A Closer Walk With Thee...

It's been amazing chronicling my path on this blog over the last few years.  What a beautiful story I have!  The great mystery of how God can guide me and yet give me choices has been played out time and again throughout the last few years.  He has such unique ways of speaking to me; such as through the life of a duck named Thelma.  I love sharing my story with you, not because I am trying to give you a bullet point list of the best way to live your life, but because I want to show you the importance of a personal relationship with Jesus.

I believe that our Daddy loves us and trusts us so much that He gives us choices that are all one way or another in His will.  There are times that He grabs our hands and leads us.  Others that He snatches us from the snares and drop offs.  And then there are the times that He turns around and watches us stand at the crossroads that all lead to Him and He lets us decide which way we desire to go.  

The closer we are to Him, the more confidence we have to take the road less traveled.

Although God told me to quit my job in faith a few times, it most certainly hasn't been how He's guided me every time I've felt unhappy with my job or anything else in life.  There have been times that I have felt dissatisfied and wanted to quit or give up only to hear from Him that it wasn't time.  He knows me better than I know myself.  He knows that I need to build my perseverance through tough situations.  It's more important to Him that I be refined and made more Christlike than it is how happy I feel in the moment.  There aren't many people out there who don't kick at the goads a bit when they know they are going to have to change.  We are quick to run away from any situation that seems too big or too scary.  God knows that about us.  We always look for the easiest way; the path of least resistance.  And even though He knows that about us, He doesn't give up.  He continues to give us situations that grow our character.  

There are times we are to persevere and then there are times where He does want us to get out; and move quickly.  There isn't time to doubt and worry.  There is only time to move forward in faith.  So many times I've stayed way longer in places or situations than I should have and I paid the consequences for it. 

We may have choices as to which way we go, but every choice has a consequence.

It's hard to know which is the right way sometimes.  God doesn't tend to make things black and white.  The closer I get to God the more comfortable I get with living in the gray areas of life.  Not having a list of right and wrong answers draws us closer to the Holy Spirit to guide us.  I may not always know that what I am doing is the right thing, but I do know that even if I am wrong and I fail, my Daddy never leaves me and never stops loving me.  If you are stuck in indecision, sometimes the best thing you can do is just decide on something and go for it with all you got.  You might be wrong, but either way you'll have grown in your relationship with God.  You will learn His voice of confirmation, or you will learn His voice of correction. Both of them are healing and life changing.

Learning His voice and growing closer to Him is worth the risk of failing and falling.  And when you learn that you hear His voice and you can trust Him, your faith will flourish and mature.

People have written me and asked me if they should quit their jobs or they've already quit their jobs and are wondering if they should wait for the perfect job even if it takes years to find.  The truth is....I don't have any idea what you should do.   I would love to tell you what to do because that is one of my top five favorite things ever, but the truth is that you need to ask your Daddy and let Him guide you.

Whether you stay where you are in faith, or you head out into the wild blue yonder in faith, see that no matter what...He is good.

Loves,

Katie "Trailblazer" Alicea

Duck Tales...

Duck butts!

Hello friends!  It's well past time for an update!

Today I'm going to tell a story about a duck named Thelma and how God spoke to me through her.  (Hey, He can speak through a donkey, why not a duck?!....or a dog?)

Tony and I live in a beautiful little community in Pompano Beach, FL.  Although it is full of condos, this is still considered a nature preserve and so there are all kinds of ducks, cranes, birds, turtles, lizards, and apparently somewhere out there lurks an alligator.  

One day as I was getting out of my car, I saw something move in the bushes that line the curb beside my parking space.  I peered through the branches to see it was a beautiful duck, and she was sitting on a nest.  I'm sure it's no surprise to you at all that I talked to her and named her.  

She looks like a Thelma.  Trust me.  

I ran inside the apartment and excitedly exclaimed, "Tony!!  Guess what!?"

"Um, you won the lottery?  You met Ryan Gosling?  Whitney is off the air?, " he guessed as a smile spread across his face.

"No!! BETTER!!!  There's a duck in the bush beside my car!"

Okay, so maybe I'm a bit prone to overexcitement.

Before I tell you more about Thelma, let me switch gears and tell you what was going on in my heart around this time.  After a few months at my job, I realized this was not what I wanted to do forever.  I couldn't quite understand at the time why I was feeling this way.  Clearly God had lined this job up for me.  If that was true, then why was I feeling like it didn't quite fit? 

God had begun stirring something in my heart before I left my job in DC, and I haven't been able shake it.  He hasn't been specific about what this thing will look like.  He hasn't told me where I will be and what I will be doing.  I've just known that I will know when I know...ya know!?

So when I met Thelma, I was at a place of knowing that this job wasn't for me, but not knowing what to do about it.  I had just gone through a few pretty huge transitions.  I had moved away from my family and friends.  I had just gotten married.  Tony had just started a new job that was part time.  We are in need of a new car (sadly, my Jeep is in the death throws).  It didn't seem like  good time to tell my husband I wasn't happy at my job.  

So for awhile I didn't say anything.  I thought that it was just me struggling with the transition.

Every morning on my way to my car and every evening on my way in from work I would stop and look in on Thelma and say hello.  I felt a kinship with this little duck.  I felt like I understood what it was like to sacrifice yourself for what was to come later.  I understood how it feels to protect a delicate, precious future promise.  I have laid down my dreams, covered them, and waited for the day that my waiting and wanting would end.  

As the other mama ducks waddled around the property with their baby ducks in toe, I would see Thelma patiently sitting on her nest.  Time kept passing.  The other baby ducks were getting older, but no babies for Thelma.  Not yet.

I finally told Tony how I was feeling about my job.  He was totally understanding and supportive and told me that it was time to move on.  The one question he asked me was, "what do you want to do?".  I felt weird at the time telling him that I didn't know, but that I would know it when I saw it.

The very next day, after we had decided it was time to look for something new, Tony talked to some of his friends to see if they knew of anything.  One of Tony's friends told him about a job opening where he works and would be happy to talk to me about it if I was interested.  As Tony told me a vague description of the job, I knew already in my heart that this was it.

The very next day after our decision that I needed to look for a new opportunity, I knew I had found my new job.

I don't think Tony would mind if I tell you that he thought I was jumping the gun a bit.  I didn't even really know much about the job or even the organization.  He thought I might just be anxious to leave and was putting all my eggs in the first basket I found.

I talked with Tony's friend, sent him my resume, and waited.

A few days later I get an email inviting me for an interview.  I was SO excited!  I couldn't believe how quickly things were moving and working out!

The only issue was that I couldn't leave my job yet.  My office was short staffed and there was no way I could leave until the office manager came back, and she wouldn't be back for at least another month and a half.  

I replied that I was interested in setting up the interview (it couldn't hurt to interview, right!?), but only got a reply a week later that interviews were on hold and they would contact me later to set up an interview time.  At first I was disappointed.  Tony advised me to start looking for other jobs in the area, but I told him that I knew I wasn't supposed to.  I knew that even if this job didn't work out, God was going to open the door Himself and all I had to do was wait.  I think that made Tony a little nervous, but I assured him that this is how God and I roll.  I stopped striving a while ago and I wasn't going to pick it back up no matter how unsure the future looked.

What do ducks think about while they sit on their eggs all day and wait?

That is one of the many questions I had for Thelma, but she didn't answer me.  Time kept ticking on.  More baby ducklings hatched by other ducky mamas, but Thelma was still waiting.  If ducks could make expressions I would say she was getting a little impatient.  The rainy season had begun a few weeks back and it pained me to think of Thelma sitting in the rain while lightening streaked the sky above her.  As if the waiting wasn't bad enough.  Now she's stuck in the rain.

Work was becoming more and more stressful for me.  I felt like I was stuck in the rain too.  I didn't know what was going to happen next, but I knew it was time to go.  Tony and I had decided that I was going to leave whether I got this job or not.  This was a huge leap of faith, but for some reason we weren't worried about it. 

A few days before my office manager returned to work, I got an email to set up my interview.  Isn't God's timing perfect!? I scheduled the interview and waited on God to tell me what to do next.

This may sound a bit crazy, but I knew that it would be time to quit my job as soon as Thelma's eggs hatched.  

A week after my office manager got back to the office after being gone for a few months, Thelma's eggs hatched.  

I gave my notice the next day.

I don't know which one I was more excited about...giving my notice or seeing Thelma's 21 ducklings.  That's right...twenty one!!! I counted them myself.  The average hatching is around 9 to 14 duckings.   

One evening when I came home from work, I saw Thelma and her clan waddling through the front yard of our building.  There was a lady standing there watching them and I struck up a conversation with her.   She told me that she had lived in the community for about 10 years and had loved watching the ducks and their hatchlings.  She told me she couldn't believe that this duck had so many ducklings; she had never seen one have that many.  I know it sounds so strange, but I felt so proud of Thelma and her sacrifice.  She may have been the one to wait the longest for her promise, but she got more babies duckies for her troubles.  I know she's a duck and she was just doing what ducks do, but it was miraculous to me none-the-less.  

Everyone at my job was so super supportive and understanding.  I left there knowing that God had done something very important in me and through me with this position.  

I also left not knowing whether or not I was going to have a job.

After a couple of awesome interviews, I was offered the job!!  

You're now looking at (or more accurately: reading the words of) the Relationship Manager/Assistant to the President of OneHope (check out their website to find out what they are all about)!!  

Another leap of faith and another opportunity to see that God is faithful.  

Thelma and her ducklings have moved on from my building, but sometimes I get the opportunity to see them.  Some mornings as I look out my window that over looks the water, I see her and her little ones walking along the waters edge.   I miss seeing her in the bushes by my car, but you can't sit and wait forever.  She can't stay at the nest while her babies run about.  When the promise comes, it's time to leave the nest and experience the gift of all that waiting. 

I'm ready to leave the nest as well.  I've learned so much in the waiting, but it's time to get excited about stepping into my next adventure!

Don't give up on your dreams or desires.  Sometimes there will be a detour.  Sometimes you will have to lay them down and wait.  But know that God is faithful to fulfill His promises.  He is a good Daddy. When I look back at my older blog posts where I write about leaving DC and what has transpired since then I am totally in awe.  If God Himself would have told me that I would meet my future husband, move to Florida, and meet so many amazing new people I don't think I would have believed Him.  This transition hasn't been easy, but I wouldn't take a moment of it back.  If you want to really live you have to be willing to step out into the unknown and risk failing, falling, and being wrong.  Looking back over my life, it's within my scariest, most unsure moments that I have grown the most.  I draw closest to Jesus in that place.  And the closer to Him the better.

It's good to be writing again.

I missed you all.

Loves,

Katie Alicea

My Funny Valentine...

A pic from the first time we met in 2011

One year ago today I saw my future husband's face for the first time. Even though we had only talked a few times on the phone, he asked me to be his Valentine. So forward! I loved it.

When his face appeared on my computer screen I knew I was in trouble. Oh....that smile.

It's been a whirl wind since then. Skype, emails, phone calls, flying to and from for only a few days in the same location, moving to FL, getting engaged, getting married 3 months later, moving into our own place. It's been fast and it's been AMAZING.

We've been married for 4 short months now and I feel like it was years ago that our romance began.

I love lists, so I thought I would write a list of the things that I've learned and loved over this short amount of time that I've been with my man:

1. I love that Tony does the dishes, picks up around our place and gets it all tidy, and makes the bed every day. I don't even have to ask him to do it. It's just done. When I was single I didn't know I would love something like this so much, but now that I have someone else sharing a living space with me and I don't have to do it all by myself, I notice it and I love it!

2. Tony thinks I'm cute and funny. He laughs at me when I pretend to be a small animal and burrow into his chest. He looks at me like I'm crazy when I start doing my Liz Lemon/Elaine dance to the music in my head. He thinks it's adorable that all of my impersonations sound like Ray Ramono or Kermit the Frog. Sometimes we just sit and make faces at each other. Something we started doing over Skype when we got to hour 4 and were too tired to talk anymore. If there is something funny to be found in something. We will find it. We're goofy. We play. We laugh. I love this about us. My prayer is that we laugh forever. God is Joy!

3. This man has the listening power of a voice recorder. Not a peep, ya'll. He listens. Even when I wish he didn't. He does. He remembers everything that is important to me. He remembers all of the things that hurt or upset me. He listens to me talk and talk for hours and doesn't get annoyed. I don't know how he does it. I tell him everything. Every. Thing. Maybe it's not supposed to be that way. Maybe there are convos best left to my girlfiriends or strangers in line at Target, but I can't help but tell him my thoughts. It's a combination of knowing that he cares and also wanting him to know me better. One day when we have a house full of little people we may not have all the time to talk like we do now; so I'm taking advantage.

4. I love listening to him. I know, it's hard to believe that with all my talking that I would find time to listen, but I do. I LOVE his thoughts, ideas, dreams, feelings, jokes, and puns...I even love it when he makes fart noises with his mouth. It's in our talking with each other that we see more and more what God is doing in our lives or wants to do in our lives. Tony and I may come from different angles and in different ways, but..we have the same goal...God's glory. The more I hear him talk about what he's learned or what excites and fires him up, the more I love him.

5. He is so warm all the time. Jacob Black ain't got nothin' on Tony Alicea. Every time I hug him, I say, "You're waaaarm!" It's just awesome.

6. He is an amazing cook! When we first got married, both of us were like, um, we don't know how to cook. And then there was Pinterest and Food Network.com. We have been cooking up a storm for each other over these last couple of months. We have two different cooking styles. Tony follows the cooking directions to a tee; including using fresh ingredients. I can't follow a recipe exactly to save my life. I have to change it in some way. Interesting, huh!? :)

7. He loves me. When I hurt, he hurts. When I'm happy, he's happy. He longs to please me and make me smile. He listens to my needs and is careful with my heart. When I mess up or act like a 5 year old, he forgives me. He loves my attention and affection. He misses me when I'm not around. He says awesome things about me all the time. His love makes me want to be a better person. Isn't that exactly what it should do? He is patient, he is kind, he doesn't brag when he's right and I'm wrong, he doesn't get jealous, he doesn't act arrogantly, he nevers dishonors me, he isn't quick to anger, he doesn't keep a record of all the wrongs I've done, he always protects me, always trusts me, always has hope in me, and always perseveres through the rough places. He is my husband and I am so proud to be his wife.

There are so many more reasons I love my husband, but some of those would be inappropriate to list, so we'll leave it at that. :)

Happy Valentine's Day to my amazingly awesome husband, Tony! May the rest of our days be filled with love, light, joy, and unicorn farts*!

*He knows what that means. And he thinks it's adorable.

Loves,

Katie Alicea

Jesus at the DMV...

There are three places on Earth that I do my best to avoid at all costs:

1. Black Friday shopping.  Anywhere.  Anytime.  Never.  Just never, ever.

1a. Wal*Mart. Where every day is Black Friday.

2. The dentist.  I know...unlike black Friday shopping, the dentist really isn't something you should avoid.  Teeth are super important.  They are used for smiling, and chewing, and biting people while they sleep.  I get it.  And before you start in with the jokes about WV people not having teeth and I have to attack you with lightening fast ninja moves (while wearing cowboy boots), let me just say that I still force myself to go to the dentist; albeit not as often as I should.  But seriously, can I get an Amen! about how super horrible it is to sit through minutes upon minutes of that drill sound whilst having  a deep heart-to-heart with your hygienist even though your mouth is wide open and you're drooling on yourself?  

3. The DMV.  I don't need to elaborate here.  

It's not against the law to skip out on black Friday shopping, and thankfully, even the dentist.  However, it's required by law that you get a new driver's license when you move and/or change your name.  Seeing as how I recently did both of those things, I had to make a date with destiny and get thyself down to the DMV.  Did I wait waaaay longer than I should have?  Yes. Yes I did.  But just like taxes and death, you can't avoid the DMV.

Every single time I've gone to the DMV it's been the same cliche experience.  The people that work there are rude and the people waiting are rude.  Everyone is angry, in a hurry, has some sort of oozing bodily injury, contagious skin disease, or uncontrollable cough, and is most likely talking loudly on their cell phone about how rude and gross everyone is.  I'm pretty sure you've probably encountered some version of the same thing. 

So as I was getting all 21 of my documents prepared that prove who I am and where I live, I was not-so-much looking forward to yet another DMV experience.  Even though I "made an appointment", I planned to be there for hours.  I figured the whole "appointment" thing was really just another device the DMV utilizes in order to torture you slowly by giving you hope of faster service and then making you wait even longer for thinking you were worthy of such special treatment.

Basically, I was preparing for the worst.  (I should really learn to take my own advice.  Bad Katie.)

When I got to the DMV, carting my portfolio of documents, there was already a long line.  I made a quick scan of the area and found that the environment appeared worse than I had expected.  Grey, cracked walls.  Crusty white floors. People sitting in metal folding chairs. The faint smell of stale air, old french fries, and disappointment.  I looked for the sign that said, "Come over here if you have an appointment! :D  We have peanut butter fudge, bear hugs, and unicorn rides!", but I didn't see it.   There were children running around with only a diaper on.  Customers yelling through the tiny hole in the plexyglass window at the exasperated young lady in charge of parking tickets.   It wasn't pretty, ya'll.

It was so DMV.

As I stood in line awaiting my turn with the disinterested front desk person, something happened.

God showed up.

He tapped me on my shoulder and asked if I would mind if He joined me this morning at the DMV.

Of course I said yes, but I couldn't help but ask Him why in the world He would want to hang out in such a yucky place.

His reply to me changed the entire atmosphere in the blink of an eye.

He wondered aloud to me exactly what I thought He meant when He told me recently that He wants me to "leave the sidelines and get in the game".   Did I not understand that everywhere I go, especially to places like the DMV, there are people He wants to touch, heal, and love?  Did I think my commission had hours like an office job, where I clock in and out?

Oh man, did I feel convicted.

As we talked, I began to see people differently.  I looked past my precepts and saw PEOPLE.  People just like me.  For just a moment, He showed me each person through His eyes.  The people I first saw as rude, sick, and weird,  looked beautiful to me all-of-a-sudden.  

I didn't expect it, or even ask for it, but I felt God's Holy Spirit fill the room...  

And that's when the miracle happened.

I looked around me and I saw smiles and laughter. The gray walls were more of a light blue.  The lines weren't quite as long as they seemed before.  I don't know if the people changed or the way I saw them changed...or both....but everything looked different.

Because I saw things differently, I behaved differently.

I was friendlier.  I was more engaging with those around me.  I acknowledged the people that worked there and thanked them helping me.  I made eye contact, said hello, and smiled at people...yes....even at the DMV.

The DMV became beautiful.

I looked out into the sea of people from all walks of life and I thanked God for the opportunity to hang out with Him there.  He was a proud Father showing off His children.  Every. single.  person. in that place was His special creation. He longed to touch them.  Hold them.  Comfort them.  Heal them.  LOVE them.  He showed me that as bad as I think it is at the DMV, some people leave the gray walls of this place to return to something much worse.  Everywhere they turn they encounter nothing but ugliness and pain.  No one looks at them.  No one sees them.  No one says hello.  They are passed over by the world.  Cast aside as worthless or trash.  That little girl running around in her diaper might get the only attention she is going to get all day from the people at the DMV.  

While I was waiting for my new drivers license to print, I started chatting with the lady sitting next to me. She said to me, "Has this not been a wonderful experience? I mean, it's incredible!  I've never had such an amazing experience at the DMV and I've made sure to tell everyone here just how much I appreciate what a great job they're doing."  Then the guy in front of me turned around and said the same thing.  A guy in the row beside us heard what we were saying and he agreed as well.  The people that worked there were smiling and dancing to the piped-in music from the radio.  "Thank yous" were heard every where I went.  People were happy and so was I!

Listen ya'll, when Jesus shows up, things change.

Could He have shown up with someone else yesterday? Sure! But He asked ME.

What if I would have ignored Him as I sometimes do?

It's easier to keep to ourselves as we go from place to place throughout our day.  It's easier to say that the DMV is just destined to be a miserable, dark place.  When God taps on our shoulder and asks if we mind if He joins us everywhere we go, we can say no-thank-you so that we don't have to see what He sees, or  risk opening our hearts and minds to the hurting world around us.   He doesn't make us touch people and love them.  He doesn't force us.

We need to understand that the job isn't for someone else.  If we don't do it, it won't get done.  Whether it's at work, school, the grocery store, church, walking down the street, at Wal*Mart, the dentist's office, the DMV, with our family, in our marriages, or in our friendships...if we don't bring Jesus there...who will?  Why count on other people to do the job you were given?

My experience yesterday at the DMV changed me.  It has inspired me to not only look for Jesus everywhere I go, but to ask Him to come along if He's not already there.

He's FUN!

HUGS,

DMV lover

Put Me In Coach: Part 2...



Me being adorable.

My Grammy loves to tell stories about when I was a little girl and I love listening to them.   She tells about how I used to go straight into her closet when I would come to her house, and come out wearing her high heeled shoes.  I would stumble out into the living room to show them off, even though I was barely old enough to walk.  I would request (okay...insist) that she let me wear her silk nightgown as a dress while I sang and danced to her Bing Crosby and Frank Sinatra records.  I loved dressing up in her clothes, putting on her Lee Press-On nails (remember those!?), and pretend I was an actress in a movie.  But there is one story she tells that always makes my heart swell because it is such a wonderful example of how children see themselves before life has the chance to tarnish it.

Here's the story.

When I was around two years old, my Grammy's brother-in-law died of a heart attack.  The memorial service was held at a venue that had a small stage at the back of the room.  As people milled around, my Grammy suddenly noticed out of the corner of her eye something moving up the stairs of the stage.  She turned to find that it was me in a cute little white dress, climbing onto the stage.  My white dress shoes made clicking noises as I walked to the front of the stage.  A smile she hadn't made for days slowly spread across her face as she saw me begin to dance and spin.  She tells me that she could look at me and see that I was dancing to a song from somewhere inside me.  As I danced people started to turn and notice.  The more eyes that fell on me, the bigger my smile got and the more I would kick and twirl.

I knew people were watching me and I loved it!  Even though I was a tiny little thing, I knew that my dance was changing the atmosphere.  My parents smiled at me as people gathered around the stage and started clapping and laughing.  I may not have understood death or even life; but even at that age I knew all I needed to know.  My presence, my freedom, my beauty, my dance, my LIFE....changes things.

The cuteness.  It just won't stop.

As we grow older we start caring what other people think of our dance.  We worry about messing something up or being an inconvenience.  So we stop.  We lock up that free little soul somewhere deep in us where we can't hear the song anymore and we tell ourselves it better this way.  It's better to blend in. It's better to just let things be as they are and not rock the boat. 

I can't help but ROCK!

It's the shift from thinking like a child to thinking like an adult that makes it hard for us to know Jesus.  Little kids don't struggle so much with the idea of God and His being present in our lives.  They believe in things they can't see or feel.  I remember really and truly believing that the fort my brother and I built out of blankets and couch cushions really was a prison for little brothers that don't let their sister play with their GI Joes.  I remember not being able to understand why my mom was so horrible at playing Barbies with me.  Piles of pillows were mountains, not piles of pillows.  Barbie and Skipper had an obvious jealousy issue involving Ken's attention and his affinity for my G.E.M. doll.  Explaining everything that was happening to my mom was so exhausting.  Why couldn't she just see what I saw?

At some point in life we are all told in some way or another that miracles aren't real, stop playing, no more make-believe, no one is coming to our rescue, we are average or worse...we are junk, our imagination and visions are crap, dreaming is a waste of time,  we aren't beautiful, captiving, compelling, strong, desirable, fun, exciting, worthy, there are rules we have to follow to fit in, and so on and so on.  At first, when we're little,  we don't believe these lies, but as time goes on and we keep hearing them, we swallow them like a pill and allow the poison to infect us. 

In my own life, I've circled back. I've purposely and happily regressed back to that little Katie who knew she was necessary and beautiful.  I've got my dancing shoes back on, ya'll! It took me awhile to get here, but the journey has been well worth it.  It's not so hard to believe in Jesus now that He's taken all that poison and junk out of my life.  It's not so hard to see Him in all the places and people I couldn't see Him before.  The scales have been removed from my eyes.  The hardness is gone.  I know with all that I am that I am an irreplaceable part in what God is doing in the Earth.  Today and forever.  Did you catch that? FOREVER.  The things I do now, effect generations to come.  I am like, really, really important.  And so are you. 

Future preacher right here!!

That day while I danced on the stage and people clapped, smiled, and forgot about the sadness for a moment; they weren't doing it because of me. Sure I was cute and all, but even though they didn't realize it, they were actually captivated by God.  He is Beauty. He is Joy. He is Life.  He is Freedom.  There is no death in Him.  There is no pain and sadness in Him.  It was His presence that took their focus off of death and onto Joy! Whether I am 5 years old or 105 years old, anything and everything good and attractive about me is ALL because God's Holy Spirit lives inside of me.  He wants to use us to show Him to a hurting world.  When we pull back and stand on the sidelines we are robbing the world of our God-given gifts.

Until we stop caring what people think and starting caring about what God desires, we will not be satisfied.  We might eek by.  We might claw through each day and fall into an exhausted heap at the end of the day.  We might be able to convince ourselves life is too hard because it's Monday, or because our tire went flat, or because we don't have money to pay the bills, or whatever.  We might be kinda okay as long as we keep a constant stream of distractions coming at us so we don't hear His voice telling us to get to center stage and dance.  But we won't be living to our full potential.  We won't get to experience the true and irrevocable freedom, joy, grace, and love that comes from being in an intimate relationship with our Creator. 

Your dance changes things. 

So dance!

Go be...YOU!

Love,

ME!

I think you get the picture. (Pun most definitely intended.)

Put Me In Coach...

When I was a little girl, I believed that I had something really special.   More than that; I knew I was adored and precious.  I can almost remember believing that anything is possible, that magic was real, and that I was a really important part of everything going on around me.

And then life taught me something different.

Circumstances and hurt, scared people taught me to be satisfied with living a life on the sidelines happily cheering the winners on, while I took my rightful place with the rest of the spectators.

I've been a spectator all my life; whether it be in team sports, with boyfriends, with my family, with my friends, or with my job.  I never tried to be the star or the leader.   I always thought it was just me being humble, but now I realize it's all fear and distractions.  That little girl that knew she was special never stopped trying to work her way back into the spotlight she so adored, but I kept telling her to have a seat.  

But I wasn't born to sit on the sidelines.  I was born to SHINE!  I am necessary.  I am precious.  I have a goal and no one can stop me from achieving it....except me.

God has shown me that it's time to leave the sideline for good and step onto the playing field.  I have to stop letting fear stop me from reaching my goals.

If you are wondering whether or not you have a starring role in the story of your life, the answer is YES!     Jesus has a plan for you, and if you are willing to follow Him, He will show you how life was meant to be lived.  With Him there is no need to fear because you can't lose.  Things may not look like you thought they would or you may make some mistakes along the way, but Jesus isn't afraid of your failure. It's time for us to stop letting fearful people, religious heaviness, and all the many other distractions of life stop us from moving forward at God's prompting.

There are times where we need to rest and replenish, and then there are times we need to give everything we have.  Only in relationship with the God that lives inside you will you know whether it's time to rest or run.

No matter the season you are in, you have a purpose that only you can fulfill.  Believe like a child again. Believe in things you can't see.  If you have need, all you have to do is ask your Daddy.  He can't WAIT to give you what you need...even your wants and desires.  Little children understand.  We need to get back to the simple days when a cardboard box was a castle and crayons could talk.


Love,

Katie

PS - Just in case you are wondering, Tony and I are doing so great and life is just really flippin' fantastic! :)