Thursday, October 21, 2010

I'm Comin' Out....

Today I am doing my very first guest blog over at Big Mama's Blog.

I'm excited and also super scared to be sharing this with you all today.

I never know when it’s going to happen.  Sometimes it will hit me when I am in the middle of laughing at a joke.  All-of-a-sudden, I’ll feel a million miles away even though I am, physically, still in the same location.  I feel totally alone even though I am surrounded by people.   I look at the people I know and I feel like I don’t know them anymore.   The feeling of panic starts like a wave.  It grows in momentum until it finally comes crashing down on me.  I break out into a cold sweat.  My fight or flight response has been activated for no real reason.  I want to run, but I don’t want to freak everyone out or look like a crazy person.  It takes every drop of energy I have to not run.  The world seems to close in on me; wrap itself around me and squeeze so hard I can barely breathe.  I wish I could just unzip my skin and run out of the body that has me trapped inside.  The inability to calm myself down or talk myself out of this makes me feel like I am on a runaway train.  My stomach starts cramping and I get hot.  More sweating.  

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  1. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I can't express what it means to me to have you be so vulnerable. It means a lot to me, and no doubt to many others.

    Thank you, thank you, thank you!

  2. It was a real privilege and honour to read that. Thank you for sharing it!

  3. I really feel for you Katie. I went through some of these feelings and my son encouraged me to go to Landmark Education which really changed my life. I just wanted to share this with you. It's unbelievable and wonderful.

  4. katie, thanks for your honesty and transparency. i know many people close to me who struggle with depression. It's definitely not something that Christians don't or shouldn't battle - it's a very real battle, spiritually and physiologically - but Jesus is the only one able to give lasting and true victory!! love you!!

  5. You have articulated your struggles beautifully. Praying that those who need to hear your message will find your post and know that they are not alone.


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